It has never been easy. When I was sixteen, I knew every potentially fatal thing in my house: Nail polish remover under the sink. Bottle of rubbing alcohol beside it. Hammer in the tool box. Forty foot bridge across the highway. Traffic outside my window.

I thought about slamming my own head against a counter until I lost feeling. I thought about punching myself in the face until I stopped breathing. I thought about running out into the street at two a.m. and waiting until a car came.

I never thought I’d make it to twenty-five. But I told myself to stay. Just for a little longer. Just to see.

So I did. I sat silent amongst my friends, searching for a way to speak. I stopped leaving my house. I swapped sleeping for staying up all night, staring at my bedroom walls. When someone came into my room to talk to me, I started crying. But I stayed. Because I thought, if I plan on dying in a few years anyway, what do I have to lose? And some days I didn’t feel like I was being swallowed whole. Some days I sat by my pool and sang until the sun set. Some days I kissed somebody on their parent’s couch and didn’t feel lonely when I got to my own bed. Some days I listened to a really great song and felt understood, if only for a second.

I stayed. And still I thought about bridges. And hammers to the head. And swallowing acetone to cleanse my insides. But slowly slowly slowly I began to understand that it was okay to cry, and shake, and feel anything but okay. I realized that there would still be days that my fist would rise to my cheek. And still, my face would sometimes resemble a bruised peach.

But now I tear up my lists of potentially ways to die before I complete them. I replace prescription: pills, rubbing alcohol, and razors with memories of the good days. Of holding your hand through the entire state of Oregon. Of running half-naked down a snowy street three New Year’s ago. Of riding go-carts in the Canadian wilderness. Of smoking cigarettes on the beach in San Francisco with someone I met six months ago. If I had left, we would not know each other.

If you feel the same way, stay. For the good days. And the sunsets. And the people out there who understand. Stay because being submerged in black water does not mean you have to drown. Stay. Just for a little longer. Just to see.

Stay | Lora Mathis 

Erase the stigma behind mental illness. Being alive isn’t easy. We all have to help each other out. Losing Robin Williams to depression was a tragedy. Reach out to those around you and always offer help. 

(via lora-mathis)

@

figurants:

some people were born today. hello babies welcome to the earth. you missed a bunch of stuff while you were busy not existing. jbiebs did some things you would not believe

asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info
asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info
asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info
asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info
asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info
asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info
asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art
on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine
Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.
The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.
Zoom Info

asylum-art:

Christoph Bader: Intricate Digital Art

on Behance, Flickr , Graphicine

Unique and eye-catching, art can come in many different variations and designs, giving us, the viewer, a wide range of unique allure. Well today we get a look at the work of German designer Christoph Bader, who created some astonishing and eye-catching pieces, which boast shapes and patterns, resulting in artwork that look anything but digital.

The collection, Limm, was done on a computer, making things even more interesting, taking on a look of elaborate and amazing, intricate string work that makes for some busy and brilliant work.

neverlaur:

neverlaur:

bowlingforwhoop:

neverlaur:

So my Dad and brother took separate cars to dinner tonight, and this happened.

they look like they are arguing about who is going to go home and change

Oh, they were.
Jake: You’ve got to be kidding meDad: You SAW me walk through the kitchen on my way to pick up your sister!Jake: No seriously do you have an extra shirt in your car this is ridiculous

Oh my god they’re gonna kill me they didn’t want to even walk into the restaurant together let alone have this many people reblog this photo

neverlaur:

neverlaur:

bowlingforwhoop:

neverlaur:

So my Dad and brother took separate cars to dinner tonight, and this happened.

they look like they are arguing about who is going to go home and change

Oh, they were.

Jake: You’ve got to be kidding me
Dad: You SAW me walk through the kitchen on my way to pick up your sister!
Jake: No seriously do you have an extra shirt in your car this is ridiculous

Oh my god they’re gonna kill me they didn’t want to even walk into the restaurant together let alone have this many people reblog this photo

vanehwasreal:

vanehwasreal:

mom: hey honey i’m home, i hope you’ve had a nice couple of days- have you been sitting by your computer this entire time

me:

image

showed this to my mom she was like “no u look way worse than that by the time i find you”

i-o-u-an-assbutt:

iamaproudsuperwholockian:

counting-to-one-hundred:

APPARENTLY ACCORDING TO CBC NEWS TUMBLR IS KNOWN FOR “Foul language and nude photos” 

REALLY? THATS ALL? WHY NOT THE AMAZING ARTISTS? THE SOCIAL JUSTICE? EVEN THE PHOTOGRAPHS ON THE SO CALLED “HIPSTER BLOGS” 

WE ARE MORE THAN JUST FOUL LANGUAGE AND NUDE PHOTOS. WE ARE SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT

Are we?

yes we fucking are now shut your dirty whore mouth you lil shit